The Battle of the Bulge

Hi, my name is Michelle, and I’m overweight. I can’t keep blaming on my pregnancy anymore; mini-man will be 3 in March. Photos from Mexico scared me… or is it scarred me?

Anyway… the time is now.

My Weight Loss Story

michelle-thinI put on weight from when I was about 8 or 9 years old when I was abused. And while that situation is long dealt with and forgiven, what remained was an insecurity and a compulsion that warped me just a little. I first joined Weight Watchers on the advice of my parents at the age of 12 when I weighed roughly 150 lbs at about 5’0″ to put a little perspective to it. That didn’t do a thing, though. I was 12 for goodness sake.

I never ended up doing anything about it until 2002, when I was 27 years old. I’m not sure what clicked, but I maxed out at 215 lbs and finally decided I was done with it. What followed was a full year of Weight Watchers, added to the running and kickboxing training I was already doing, resulting in a 60 lb weight loss.

Before Weight Watchers I was working out a lot – I did kickboxing at least 3-4 times a week and ran here and there, did some yoga, snowboarding in the winter… but I also ate. A lot, apparently. Too much, even for my high level of activity. What was really great about Weight Watchers was that it really taught me just how much food is normal. I seemed to have misplaced that perspective… or maybe never had it to begin with.

My Weight Gain Story

41wksI kept the weight off until I got pregnant in the summer of 2005. I started gaining weight right from the beginning of my pregnancy. I think (or maybe try and justify it?) it was from being really lean when I got pregnant; my body fat % was about 16-18% and for a woman that’s lean. Even at work people were speculating that at over 150 lbs I was anorexic. But by the time I was 3 months pregnant I’d already put on about 15 lbs. Then I had to quit kickboxing when I was 5 months because of the anaerobic nature of it – my doctor was concerned baby wasn’t getting enough oxygen.

So then I sat on my couch for 6 months. Probem is I kept eating the same.

I tried replacing my beloved sport with walking or water aerobics, but it just wasn’t the same. I never found that thing I liked enough. I weighed 232 lbs the morning I went to the hospital for my son’s birth; this is a pic I took that morning. That’s a total gain of nearly 70 lbs.

Anyone who has a baby will tell you it’s the fastest weight loss you’ll ever experience. I lost 25 lbs in 3 days… then another 10 within 2 weeks. And then nothing. WHAT?! So there I was left with an extra 35 lbs again.

And now, I find myself with a hair over 40 lbs I need to lose again.

My New Weight Loss Commitment

Now, I don’t have kickboxing to use anymore and have a 3 year old at home I have to be around for, so workout time is way more challenging to come by. My husband’s jobs are unpredictable and take him out of town sometimes for weeks at a time. But I’m determined to do it again. My head is in the right place now and I’m ready. And in the same way I recruited my friends on a Facebook Group to support my efforts to quit smoking, I’m going to use this public blog to prove my commitment.

Here’s my photo inspiration: My wedding day. If you’ve seen me lately, you know…

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This time the plan is much more simple, and probably more challenging but I will make it work: Weight Watchers Online and my Wii Fit. That’s it.

Now watch me shrink.

Unplugged

The beach at the resort where I'll be staying

Well, I’m headed out tomorrow for a quick vacation to Cancun, Mexico.

While I don’t have a long time, it will be a good time… even if the weather forecast isn’t looking stellar. It’s warm; so who cares? I’ve got 3 new swimsuits, some cute new Roxy flip flops and my own coffee press (yes, with coffee and demerera sugar… because I’m a total coffee snob).

I’m really stoked about seeing my son enjoy the beach, the water, and some snorkeling. He’s been doing a super job in the pool and I’m so proud of how confident he is in the water. He’s not even 3 yet but can swim underwater with dad down to about 6-8 feet to pick stuff up off the pool floor. He can also snorkel with his water wings on, keeping his face under water for about 3 or 4 minutes before he wants to lift his head up and look around. He’s going to have a blast!

I’m hoping to find a couple of hours to myself to give windsurfing another whirl; I quite enjoyed it last year and did a pretty good job, too, if I do say so myself. I would try and take it up regularly here in Vancouver but I’m just not a fan of being cold.

If we end up with beautiful sunny days, we’re planning to book a day trip to Isla Mujeres on a catamaran. That will be our big exciting day while the rest will be spent on or near the resort.

Best part will be just turning my brain off. Well, okay, not OFF… but stopping all the details from their constant bombarding. I really think the life I live – particularly doing business online, where I have access to far more information than I could EVER process – leads to a very fragmented thought pattern, increased ADD and heightened stress.

While I love what I do, but I’m very much looking forward to a break. So no blogs, tweets or Facebook updates for a week. CYA L8R!

Snowmageddon. Is that what we’re calling it?

My mother in law's back yard & pool house

My mother in law's back yard & pool house

What has happened to our sense of community? Why are we all sticking our heads in the sand snow and pretending like this isn’t happening?

After reading extensively about this year’s higher-than-usual snowfall in Vancouver, not to mention working where the snow is really a necessary and enjoyable part of the equation, I’m convinced we need a refresher lesson on how to conduct ourselves to the betterment of our communities.

The following two links got me really thinking about our current weather situation:

Raul posted about the fact that Vancouver is just not prepared for a ‘climatic event’ such as this. True.

Burnaby Mayor Derrick Corrigan basically just said, ‘Get over it we’re not paying any more for snow removal.’

This year’s snowfall has made people in Vancouver angry; I’ve been a victim myself. I have felt a general sense of bitterness while out and about this holiday season and I am quite certain it has come from the snow.

We are all so busy being angry and self-absorbed, we’ve all stopped thinking about our communities. We’ve stopped being a part of our neighbourhoods and recognizing the greater good that can be achieved by each of us doing our part to help one another. We’ve fogotten how to be considerate.

Not only have we not been considerate, we’ve been down right rude at times. I’ve had people flip me the bird for simply suggesting they not park their cars in the middle of the road, and I’ve displayed some equally obnoxious behaviour of my own for minor infractions.

Now, I’m not an expert, but I spent a few years living in BC’s Thompson Okanagan region, so I’m very familiar with living in the snow. I think we can all do a much better job next time this happens by being better prepared and keeping our heads on straight.

Here are some tips for how to prepare and cope with snow:

Ensure your vehicle has at least good all-season tires.
While snow tires are favourable in the snow, we don’t always need them in Vancouver. We don’ t usually get the cold temperatures that would warrant snow tires. But good all-season tires are a must for even the smallest amount of snowfall on wet roads. Don’t wait until the snow starts falling; ensure you have good tires by mid-October at the latest. Vancouver has been known get a visit from Jack Frost before Halloween.

Ensure you own warm, waterproof boots.
They don’t have to look pretty. They don’t have to be trendy or cool. They just have to be warm and have a tread on them. If you can tuck your pants in to them, all the better. Trust me, I know this doesn’t win you any dates, but it really does serve a purpose. You don’t look all that cool with your pants soaked up to the knee because they’ve been dragging in the snow and you’ll have something to wear when you’re trudging through the snow to get your shovel. It’s also a good idea to buy one or two pairs of really warm (read: ski) socks, a toque, scarf and gloves. Just have them. It’s okay to keep and use the same ones for 20 years if they only come out once or twice a year.

Keep a brush/scraper in your car.
I bought a long handled one from Wal-Mart for just $5 this year. It really does make it easier to clear the snow off your car (certainly easier than using a credit card). It also will make it comfortable enough so you can continue wiping snow off your vehicle until all the windows, roof AND headlights are clear. Please don’t forget that if your front bumper has more than 10cm of snow on it, your lights probably aren’t as visible to other drivers as they should be. Furthermore, if you don’t clear the snow off your roof, the car behind you may as well be driving in a snowstorm.

Move your car in to your carport or driveway.
Get your cars off the road as soon as the snow starts falling. This is impossible if you have more cars than spaces, but you really need to make an effort to clear the road of cars so that when the snow plows pass they are actually removing the snow from the roads and leaving the roads as wide as they were intended to be. We’ve all seen what happens when the snow plows can only push the snow as far as the outside of cars parked along the sides: roads become reduced to single lane alternating pathways.

Pick up a shovel and start sweating.
Skip the gym workout in favour of shoveling. Shoveling in the snow will provide enough exercise for anyone who wants it. Ensure you own a snow shovel and take the time to shovel your sidewalks, walkways and driveway. Most municipalities require you to shovel the sidewalk adjacent to your property by 10am each day. If you don’t shovel it, people risk their lives by walking in the road. Shovel the side walk morning AND night. None of us ‘has time’ to do this, but we need to make time. It’s imperative during snowfall; if you don’t keep up, you’ll never catch up. Shovel your driveway and your sidewalks and make sure you shovel the snow on to your own property instead of the road. Lastly, try not to get angry when the plows push snow back on to your freshly shoveled sidewalk. That’s just part of the game.

Help out your neighbours.
The shoveling I was just talking about… yeah, your neighbour needs his property shoveled too. While you’re out there, lend a hand if you can. I know we’re all running late all the time, so taking time to help someone out isn’t something we have a natural tendency towards doing. At the same time we’ll all be in less of a hurry when someone dies because they were over 80 and trying to do the shoveling themselves and no one offered to help. Some people, particularly the elderly, don’t drive and thus rely on sidewalks to get around safely. Many are ultimately trapped in their homes without adequate snow removal.

Allow ample time to get where you’re going.
I’m certain most accidents could be avoided if everyone would just slow down. Give yourself more time to get where you’re going and don’t expect you can carry on with your life at the hectic pace you’re used to. You need to allocate more time in the snow. If the person in front of you wants to drive more slowly than you do, give them that without pressuring them to go faster than they’re comfortable. Driving a lifted 4×4 is not an excuse to be a jerk on the road. Just because you can still go the speed limit doesn’t mean everyone else can, nor does it mean they should pull over.

Be cautious on the roads.
Whether you’re driving or walking, be extra careful to obey the rules of the road. Do not jay walk. Drivers can’t tell for certain whether they’ll be able to stop when they expect to, let alone when they don’t expect it. Don’t step out even if you have the right of way until you know for sure the approaching vehicle can stop. As a driver, stay in your own lane. Snow is no excuse to erase the lines on the road. Just because you can’t see them, doesn’t mean you should assume they aren’t there. Don’t cut the corners; just go slower.

Take up a winter sport.
Enjoy the snow! There’s no reason to make it a dreary affair. If you have kids, take them sledding. If you don’t, take up a snow sport like cross country skiing, downhill skiing, snowboarding or snowshoeing. There are so many wonderful ways to enjoy the great outdoors in the snow, it’s a shame to spend the winter cooped up inside yearning for the days of warm sand and sailboats. Besides, participation in winter sport can have a positive effect on your mood and overall health. It’s just good for you.

Whether next year or ten years from now, maybe we’ll be better prepared next time. Or maybe we’ll just reach out and help one another and consider how our decisions and actions affect others when we’re faced with unusual snowfall.

What do you think? How else can we so a better job of this?

New Year’s Resolutions

paulwoolrich on Flickr

Photo: paulwoolrich on Flickr

As much as I hate them, I make them: New Year’s Resolutions.

I guess I struggle with living in a once-I’ve-screwed-it-up-it-can-never-be-perfect-again state of mind… the downfall of all perfectionists. See, after starting a new project or launching into some new commitment, there’s a constant drive to keep up with it flawlessly until the inevitable moment of failure.

It’s at that moment of failure that we find out what we’re really made of. The failure part is inevitable.

Failure is good, in fact. If you ask the most successful people of this world if they’ve ever failed, they will undoubtedly say their biggest successes came from figuring out what happened with their biggest failures.

Failure is only the opportunity to begin again, only this time more wisely. [Henry Ford]

In that moment of failure, we have to look at what went wrong and learn from it. What is keeping us from achieving that goal? Why didn’t it work? What can we do differently to obtain a different, more successful, outcome?

So here are my New Year’s Resolutions:

1) I will be a more attentive wife and mother
I am going to deliberately make time for my husband and my son every day no matter how many ideas I have or how many things I want to achieve. No matter how many chores need doing and no matter how tired I am, my number one commitment is to my family. Morning cuddles come before Twitter and maybe even before coffee. Dinner conversation comes before blogging. Good bye kisses will be given with love and patience and not the stress that comes with being just a few minutes late.

2) I’m going to be more helpful
This applies to real life and my blogs. I want to spend more time focused on other people and their needs and how I can help. I want to make a point of stopping and helping when I see someone struggling with their groceries. I want to look for ways to encourage people I care about. I want to write more about business and my knowledge and wealth of experience in my field so small business owners can benefit. This requires me to dig in and look at ways in which I am, indeed, knowledgeable. I find it hard to see sometimes.

3) I’m going to treat my body well
Let’s face it: I’m not 20 anymore. When I don’t get enough sleep, don’t drink enough water, eat on the go and sit at the computer regularly, the only thing that suffers is my health. I love the overall sense of  wellbeing I get from sports and exercise. I love the clarity and peace that comes when I eat healthy foods. I love sleeping too :D I don’t love drinking water but I do love that I’m less snippy when properly irrigated. I’m not going to put a specific goal to it, but I will live each day with the intention of drinking plenty of water, eating a colourful assortment of fruits & veggies, and moving a little more… even if it’s a round of hula hooping with the Wii Fit.

That’s it. Not so difficult, right? Wrong. I will, at some point, fail at each one. I will become angry and irritable with my family members. I will likely begin focusing too much on the things that would make me happy at the expense of the people around me. I will also likely eat at McDonald’s or drink Coca-cola during the year ahead. But this year, I’m going to keep moving towards the future with good  intentions and a spirit of courage.

I want to be known as someone who runs a good race.

What are your New Year’s Resolutions and what will you do with your failures?

Grouse Mountain: Winter Season Opening Day

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Note: This isn’t a sponsored post, though I do work for Grouse Mountain. I may be a little biased.

So I couldn’t help myself. First tracks of the season are awesome no matter what the terrain.

So the decision was made first thing Friday, December 12th that Grouse Mountain had received enough snow to open and would begin winter season operations on Saturday morning, December 13th. Many of the employees had been speculating all week since the significant snowfall on Tuesday, but it was Thursday night’s dump that sealed the deal.

We were ready for it.

One of the biggest perks of working for a ski resort is getting out on the slopes. For those of us who work in this industry I think it’s really important we continue to enjoy it in the way we did when we were first breaking in. I ended up going three years without snowboarding up until last spring. It was only on the staff day at the end of last season that I finally got out on the snow for the first time since mini-man was born. That’s just not right.

I can safely say the hiatus is over.

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The mountain opened this morning with the new Greenway Chair and Paradise open. While I hear there were a few technical glitches with the brand new Greenway Chair, by 2pm The Screaming Eagle Quad was running and, with it, The Cut and Side Cut were open.

grouse-mountain-opening-day-2008-thecut-chairliftI got out for a few turns in the afternoon to warm up my early season legs and see if I could remember how to get down the hill. There was a super great buzz about the mountaintop – everyone seemed more excited and friendly than I’ve seen at times before. Must be because we’ve all been itching to get out in the snow, the lineups were reasonable and we were just happy to be finally on our boards.

The snow was good. Very few pebbles, a couple of icy patches, but all in all super for just a couple of feet spread out by the groomers. There were even fresh tracks to be had if you ventured to skier’s right of the Screaming Eagle and were willing to brave some of the tall grass and shrubs still poking through.

My legs held up and I didn’t have to find out how well my new pants would shield me from a roll in the snow. I did, however, determine I need to go buy some new long underwear. I am currently without a decent base layer and it was WAY colder than I’d thought it would be. I picked up some new goggles at Outfitters because I couldn’t find mine and the snow guns were blowing like crazy – in fact, I counted 9 on The Cut and I can’t stand riding without goggles.

On the way back to the Skyride I couldn’t help but pull out the camera to catch a little video of the vibe at the ice skating pond. It was packed and people were having a great time.

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I also just happened to swing by just as Karen Magnussen was starting to give ice skating tips as part of The Peak of Christmas celebrations – notice Santa’s Workshop in the background.

I think I’ll head back up next weekend with mini-man in tow so he can check out Santa and the reindeer… and I’m definitely going to have to work a couple of runs into each work week as a little reminder of how fun my job is.

Seth Godin’s Alternative MBA

Photo: CarbonNYC on flickr

Seth Godin doesn’t need me to plug his program. But I’m doing it anyway.

Very few people can mobilize others the way he can, and now, Seth Godin is looking for a few people to apprentice with him for 6 months beginning January 2009. You don’t get paid and you have to find a place to live in NYC. But, what a wild experience that would be.

I have no doubts that those who do this will see their professional lives dramatically altered.

Running is good for the soul

ReefRaff on Flickr

Photo: ReefRaff on Flickr

Ah, running… So good.

I’m not sure what it is that makes me love running so much. I don’t even mind doing it in the pouring rain – sometimes it’s even nicer like that. It does far more for me than just provide physical benefit.

I just went for my first run this morning in God-only-knows how long. I have been just dying to find more ways to work out… the video I bought is awful and I’ve had some trouble fitting it all in. And while big-man is no longer working out of town, it seems he will be working 12 hours a day for the next 6 weeks or so… with no days off.

So this morning I called my amazing mother in law (hereafter refered to as AMIL) to rescue me (again) and managed to eek out a 45 minute run in the rain while she walked mini-man around the neighborhood (hey, exercise is great for him too!) I was actually impressed that I was able to run for so long given how long it’s been, but it was like a million stresses all faded away instantly, and it was just me and my ipod.

When I’m running I feel like the person I want to be.

I’m strong, and healthy; a lean fighter. My mind and body both somehow recharge while my breathing plays a rhythm in my head. I feel joy and freedom, as if I’m doing something God intended me to do and I feel a little sad for those who can’t use their bodies in this way. I feel more energetic and better equipped to handle the challenges life throws at me. I feel peace.

Now that big-man will be home (and exhausted) in the evenings, I think I may just have to take a night or two each week and run after mini-man is in bed and big-man is passed out on the couch. And maybe my AMIL will continue to oblige a weekly Saturday morning jaunt through the neighborhood.

I wonder if it’s poor form to run to and from church on Sundays? It would mean I’m not really dressed appropriately (or clean) during the service, but I would be able to get in more run time that way. Besides, the bible even mentions running:

Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us. [Hebrews 12:1 ESV]

It must be okay then. Guess I’ll find out tomorrow…

Why run?

  • Calories burned
  • Increased cardiovascular health
  • It’s free; you just need some good shoes
  • You can do it anywhere
  • You can always go at your own pace
  • Each time is different
  • You can use speed and duration to vary workouts
  • It works your whole body
  • It’s good for the soul

What do you love about running?

Be Who You Are

faces-of-michelle-evansBe Who You Are. That was the general theme of Gary Vaynerchuks Yelling vs. Whispering. Introvert or Extrovert.

I love Gary Vaynerchuk. I have said this before and maybe my obsession is verging on unhealthy, but I really just like what he has to say. I’m not a Wine Library TV watcher (yet, I suppose… I’m just not much of a wine drinker), but I love his business/marketing content and find I’m regularly searching my feeds for something new from him.

This Yelling vs. Whispering. Introvert or Extrovert post got me thinking about my personality and it prompted me to take another run through the Jung Typology Test. I’ve done these tests before and my results have been interesting and somewhat enlightening.

I am a Rational (NTs):

  • Rationals tend to be pragmatic, skeptical, self-contained, and focused on problem-solving and systems analysis.
  • Rationals pride themselves on being ingenious, independent, and strong willed.
  • Rationals make reasonable mates, individualizing parents, and strategic leaders.
  • Rationals are even-tempered, they trust logic, yearn for achievement, seek knowledge, prize technology, and dream of understanding how the world works.

All my past results have given me a profile of ENTJ – Extroverted-Intuitive-Thinking-Judging (The Fieldmarshal):

  • A little over 2% of the population
  • tireless in their devotion to their jobs
  • ever intent on reducing bureaucratic red tape, task redundancy, and aimless confusion in the workplace
  • root out and reject ineffectiveness and inefficiency, and are impatient with repetition of error
  • Hillary Clinton, Napoleon, Margret Thatcher, Carl Sagan, Bill Gates, Golda Meir, Edward Teller, George Benard Shaw, and General George C. Marshall are examples of Rational Fieldmarshals.

This time around, however, one of the results changed – I scored as INTJ – Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, Judging (The Mastermind):

  • rare, comprising no more than, say, one percent of the population
  • Although they are highly capable leaders, Masterminds are not at all eager to take command, preferring to stay in the background until others demonstrate their inability to lead
  • Only ideas that make sense to them are adopted; those that don’t, aren’t, no matter who thought of them
  • they work long and hard and are dedicated in their pursuit of goals
  • much more definite and self-confident than other Rationals, having usually developed a very strong will
  • Alan Greenspan, Ben Bernanke, Dwight D. Eisenhower, General Ulysses S. Grant, Frideriche Nietsche, Niels Bohr, Peter the Great, Stephen Hawking, John Maynard Keynes, Lise Meitner”, Ayn Rand and Sir Isaac Newton are examples of Rational Masterminds.

So I am now considered introverted where I was once extroverted. Now, the result is pretty borderline either way, so I don’t really think I’m introverted OR extroverted… just sort of middle of the road, but definitely a blend of ENTJ and INTJ.

This overall description of the Rational (NT) really struck me:

Rationals don’t care about being politically correct. They are interested in the most efficient solutions possible, and will listen to anyone who has something useful to teach them, while disregarding any authority or customary procedure that wastes time and resources.

Yeah, that one can have a tendency to put those around me on edge a little…

I think overall these types of exercises are good for figuring out where you stand with regards to other people. When I read the descriptions I can easily see where I could rub some people the wrong way. I can also see how perhaps being in a small minority (between the two assessments I’m somewhere within a group of only around 3% of the total population) might make me hard to relate to, or, might make it hard for me to relate to others.

I have to be who I am, though. I mean, GaryV said so. I take great pride in being completely clear and open about who I am… my strengths and my failings, my goals and my views. I want people to know me for me and for, above all, my honesty and integrity. I’m not particularly polished, but what I do, I do well.

If I can’t do it well, I won’t do it at all.

Have you taken the test yet? Tell me about it.

The Effects of Aging

Arwen Abendstern on Flickr

Photo: Arwen Abendstern on Flickr

It finally happened. One little intrusive thought. I didn’t see it coming; it blindsided me in the middle of nowhere. Actually, it wasn’t the middle of nowhere; it was the middle of my rear-view mirror…

“Yeah, I should definitely get a little botox to fix that.”

Oh no! *covers mouth as if that thought actually came out* What is happening?! Where did that come from? I’m not old. I don’t think. Or am I? Maybe I am. I don’t know. What is old, anyway? Why do we worry about it?

Now I’ve had thoughts, as many other woman have had, like maybe I should get my fat sucked out and get my boobs done, but this was different. This was real. A real contemplation complete with justification in my mind.

Oh how vanity can grip us.

Two Jehovah’s Witnesses, a Catholic and an Anglican walk into a concert hall…

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Photo: blmurch on Flickr

Every now and again I spend time sitting around singing… I know, it probably sounds nerdy. Just about everything I do probably is. I download new songs from iTunes, search YouTube to pre-listen before buying, go through songs I already have etc. Tonight I spent the evening rejuvenating my spirit doing just that. I’m so incredibly moved by music and moved by creating music, that it really is a part of who I am and I couldn’t live without it.

My band is playing a concert on December 1st at the Kay Meek Centre in West Vancouver and I’m going to sing this year. It’s been a long time since I sang anywhere out side of church and I’m struggling with song choice… hey, isn’t that what they always say on American Idol? It’s all about song choice… Anyway, back to the concert. See, it’s a “Winter Concert” and not a “Christmas Concert”. Because there are a number of different religions and many non-religious people in the band, it wouldn’t be fair to have a Christmas concert. So we’ll be playing a few Christmas tunes with other random stuff – show tunes and the like – thrown in.

Personally, I like to think of this concert as a Christmas concert, and clearly Christmas songs are not forbidden, but my family is a whole blend of various religions and I don’t want to offend. My mom is an atheist and my dad a lapsed Anglican turned mason; my mother in law is Roman Catholic and my brother and sister in law are Jehovah’s Witnesses. And I’m a born again Christian – the crazy Jesus-freak kind. Yeah, I said it.

Christmas to me means the real deal – the birth of Christ – but my biggest fear is that I’ll sing my heart out to an audience only to find stunned silence at the end, or worse, a mediocre smattering of claps.

Anyway, I’ve short listed 3 songs:

I guess I feel like I’m selling out by considering Grown Up Christmas List… I mean, it’s a nice song, but one that speaks to the Santa crowd. It is heartfelt and touches the part of each human that wants world peace but still never seems to reach a passionate climax. It’s not that I think there’s anything really wrong with Santa (and world peace is, of course great), but there’s no Jesus in it… which is, in my humble opinion, what Christmas is all about. Not that this is a Christmas concert.

So I’m still undecided at this point. If you’ve read this far and know any of these songs (or had a chance to click the links and listen to them), please feel free to give me your opinion. I’m open to any and all suggestions at this point. In fact, I may just get cold feet and call the whole thing off haha… I’ve been known to do that *blush*.

Anyway, on an unrelated note… I came across an old favourite that had me bawling my eyes out by the end of it: Martina McBride’s Concrete Angel. It’s not a Christmas song, and it’s not appropriate for this concert (or any other if it will make me bawl and my nose run while singing it haha!) but it’s beautiful and always reminds me of the sadness that is interspersed throughout the faces of this world… I’ve known many who have been touched. Hope it moves you as much as it does me: